Back again…
What can I say? Do I have any excuse for abandoning a project that I so much wished for?
I think not… There is nothing to cover up for me.
Time… is lacking.
Will… has long now faded to nothingness
Despair… is sipping in.
I have no new things to offer to you. My mind has burst in million little pieces. Fragments of stories and realities collapse in each other creating a pandemonium. Heh… maybe I should just note those down and name them ‘Downwards to Insanity’… or maybe not.
I always deemed myself to be a positive person… I still desperate clutch to this notion in order to pull through. Writer’s block is when a writer cannot find new ideas… so what my condition is called? When you have so many things in your mind to write… that they tumble and swirl with each other… when havoc is loose in one’s thoughts.
Rumble, rumble, rumble.
Nothing constructive in this post.
Nothing less than excuses.
I started to say that I shall not spit excuses… and I ended doing just that.
Bah… I posted only to prove to myself that I can. And I will. When my thoughts clear out, when they settle in order, I shall continue this project. But I guess that when one’s life is a mess, then it is only logical that his thoughts will follow his example.
So until I figure out myself… Cya.
Rebirth In Darkness 